Sunday, December 4, 2011

The Feeling of Failure

I don't even know how to start this blog post.

I feel like I'm not doing enough to manage diabetes. I need inspiration to get back on this damn horse and kick the shit out of diabetes and not feel like I'm not doing enough. I test, but not nearly often enough. I SWAG carbohydrates and how much insulin to use. My blood sugars are always swinging up and down.

My last A1c was a 6.8, but not because of tight control, and I can't be happy about it, because I force myself to go low and then correct the low. I don't know what I need to feel inspired again. I feel like I'm failing at this diabetes shit.